Wednesday
It is amazing how your emotions can affect your enjoyment of food.
Example:
Today Kimm and I got into a STUPID argument right before dinnertime and even though it was PRETTY much resolved…I still felt hurt and confused about the whole thing.
Therefore, even though we were eating one of my favorite meals (Cheeseburg Salad), I really didn’t enjoy it as much as when I am in a good mood.
The food was going in…I tasted it…but I just felt flat.
Interesting huh?
Tuesday
It’s amazing how a different day can change your perspective.
Yup, I’m still fat.
Yup, I still have a LOT of work to do if I want to lose the weight.
BUT…today I feel like I can make those small changes.
Monday
Sometimes I feel like I’ll never lose this weight…NO MATTER WHAT I DO.
I mean, I’ve been trying since I was in high school.
It’s a little frustrating.
I feel hopeless tonight.
Sunday
I’m feeling FULL right now.
We went out shopping at Old Navy and grabbed some food at Pizza House on the way home.
The good thing: we actually ordered a side salad and were able to share it between us and it was GOOD. Green peppers, red onions, cucumber, tomatoes and an excellent ranch dressing (with enough of it that we weren’t hoping for more).
The bad thing: we still got the fries and with the pizza it just was a lot of food. Good food, but still too much food for for me at one sitting…but I kept eating.
We were actually talking about getting just the salad and pizza next time…who are we????
Saturday
Vacation is over 😦
Thoughts:
…I need to lose weight…badly
…I don’t really know HOW to do this anymore
…maybe a Biggest Loser challenge?
…maybe changing one habit/week
…calorie counting??? (I really DON’T want to have to do this…just seems like so MUCH work!)
…I HATE my sagging arms…I HATE my round tummy
….I just want to like myself again and I don’t know how to do that anymore??!!
Thursday
I was reading in the hospital newsletter that the OR and PACU department did a Biggest Loser challenge and are thinking of doing it again.
I was considering joining. I’m HOPING that maybe that will give me the motivation to lose some of this excess weight.
Wednesday
So….
…officially over half way through this month and I have not ADDED any salt to any of my meals!
WHAT??!!
I really cannot comprehend this at all.
Here I thought I could NEVER live without salt.
But so far, so good.
However, I have not had…
~~avocado
~~popcorn
Two items of food that I don’t think I could do with no salt.
We shall see.
Tuesday
I cannot even tell you the last time I was at the gym.
SIGH.
I NEED to get back into it.
Maybe not as intense like “every single day of the week” — but a few times.
My health needs it.
I need to justify paying $30, soon to be $40/month for this service.
Maybe even just getting to yoga or a class.
SOMETHING, ANYTHING — it needs to be done.
Monday
VACATION after only two more work days!!!
I sure am getting excited.
But as Kimm mentioned, a lot of our vacation is going to be centered around food —
…pizza out on the first and last nights
…El Forestero
…Cracker Barrel
…ice cream
…appetizers
…bagels for breakfast
…pumpkin spiced lattes
AND much more I’m sure.
I don’t know why it is but vacation for me has always signaled a BREAK from normal food patterns…letting loose a little and enjoying the food that you don’t really get to have on a normal day.
And you know what?
I’m OKAY with this.
I’m not going to not enjoy life (and the food that is part of it) because of strict food rules I tell myself to follow.
Sunday
I don’t know WHEN it happened but seriously I feel like food has become that soother for frustrating events that happen to us.
We had actually planned to get pizza out tonight because we were going to swing up to the mall and get our new iPhones. Well, the getting of the iPhones didn’t happen because we were trying to keep our current cell phone plan and because of that we had to try to order them at home which was a HUGE pain in the butt.
But even if we hadn’t planned on getting pizza out I’m sure we would have because we were both so fed up with the process of something that should have been so simple.
And when that happens, we tend to turn to food to make us feel better.
I’m not making a judgment about it…it just happens.
Something to think about.
Little by little, day by day 